Grace

Well, this week there have been a few times where I have come face to face with my own silliness and sinfulness. Whether it be putting my foot in my mouth for the hundredth time, or worring about something I have no control over, or reading into things instead of enjoying them, or failing to love someone well, I have realized a precious gift in response: laughter. Not laughter that ignors the seriousness of these things, or pretends that they didn't happen, but laughter that embraces the grace that I have been offered through Jesus christ. Jesus death and resurection has offered me so much, but one of the things that amazes me is the ability to embrace and live life fully and freely. Free from guilt or shame; able to laugh at myself and share my faults with others. Knowing that I am covered by Christ's sacrifice on my behalf. I have nothing to fear; not because I am great, because the Lord knows that on my own I am nothing, but because nothing can defeat Christ in me. I have complete confidence that christ can defeat all that comes against me, even aspects of myself at times. This reality leaves me smiling, and yes, laughing at times; stuned by the undeserved priviledge of enjoying Christ's grace. There is no greater gift, and there is no greater joy than that that comes from learning to recieve it daily. I am in love beyond what I can express with the one who loves me beyond what I deserve.